Day 5 - I am ready to do my overeating inventory. I dread it, but I know it is necessary. I will post some of it here. For example, I eat when I'm lonely, I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I am at social gatherings where people eat. Am I allowed that one? Hmmm.
At any rate, I eat a lot. Yesterday I was not having a good day. I had no gas to go anywhere except the grocery store, so I had to sit at home all day. So I "needed" lots of comfort food. So I ate and ate and.... Well, I think you get the picture.
Today I had to go sell books just to get gas money, so I'm trying to stay positive and not feel sorry for myself. If I get into the fear and self pity I know my day will be crappy, so I don't need that. I will try and focus on the good things about today.
Mornings are usually good. I eat a small breakfast and don't eat until the afternoon. Then it seems to be a gradual progression to the pigging out by late night. I hate that part. Someone told me it may be because I am lonely and need comforting at night. If that is the case, and it may be, then food is a poor substitute for a warm and loving person. Ok, if I keep on with that train of thought I will get depressed.
Wish me luck, and pray for me. This ain't easy.
At any rate, I eat a lot. Yesterday I was not having a good day. I had no gas to go anywhere except the grocery store, so I had to sit at home all day. So I "needed" lots of comfort food. So I ate and ate and.... Well, I think you get the picture.
Today I had to go sell books just to get gas money, so I'm trying to stay positive and not feel sorry for myself. If I get into the fear and self pity I know my day will be crappy, so I don't need that. I will try and focus on the good things about today.
Mornings are usually good. I eat a small breakfast and don't eat until the afternoon. Then it seems to be a gradual progression to the pigging out by late night. I hate that part. Someone told me it may be because I am lonely and need comforting at night. If that is the case, and it may be, then food is a poor substitute for a warm and loving person. Ok, if I keep on with that train of thought I will get depressed.
Wish me luck, and pray for me. This ain't easy.
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