Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Day 15 - I gained two pounds in the last week. Grrrrrrrrr, that really sucks. I guess that just reinforces what I already knew - I need help.  Tonight is 'special meeting' night.  I need them.   I cannot afford to give up. 

I am hungry now, but it is real hunger, so that is ok.  I don't mind eating when I have real hunger.  It's all the other reasons that I eat that I hate.  I also don't feel like blogging today, so I am done.

All Is Well.

Day 13 - Here I am at day 13 and all is well.  I am no more insane than usual.  Ha Ha.  I still feel good about what I'm doing and I know I will be successful as long as I keep doing what I'm doing.

I went to a support group meeting this morning.  It was very intense and the people were very warm and friendly.  They also shared some great success stories. 

It is good to be on the road to recovery with this food addiction.  I will do what has to be done to get this under control.  God is keeping me straight. 

I Walked Away From Chocolate Cake

Day 12 -  This morning went well - only ate breakfast.  So far this afternoon I have not eaten.  That is a great start for the day.

Of course I pigged out last night, no surprise there.  Today someone brought some wonderful looking chocolate cake to a meeting I attended.  It was tempting, but I walked away.

I am hungry now, but will eat when I get home.  At least this is real hunger, as opposed to emotional eating.  Real hunger justifies eating. 

Day 11

Day 11 - I ate a lot last night.  If you have followed this blog you know I always eat a lot more in the evenings.  I think the fact that I stay busier during the day helps.  I am not at home a lot during the day, but in the evenings, when I am home, I tend to eat a lot.  After all, the food is right there calling out my name.  It knows me.

Maybe I need to change my ritual.  Perhaps if I think of an irritating ritual I force myself to go through in the evenings each time I want to eat it would take away the instant gratification.  Any ideas? 

Today is good so far, but I was tempted to eat a second time this morning.  I escaped in time though.  I've eaten only once so far today.  I think overall I have done well this week.  Monday is weigh-in day.  I think it will be good. 

What? No Congrats?

Day 10 -  Last night I went to my special meeting and I shared that I lost 4 pounds and it got absolutely no response from the group.  What's up with that?  So much for support from my support group!  At least I have friends who acknowledge my victory and offer congrats.

I think I did good yesterday, and I have done great so far today.  I also found out about two more meetings I can go to.  Maybe they will acknowledge my victories.  I hope so. 

I do need to go to the grocery store this afternoon.  That may be a challenge for me.  I usually buy lots of sweets, so I will need to refrain from doing that - feel free to send a prayer my way.    

I Did Not Eat Pizza

Day 9 -  Yesterday someone bought pizza and I did not eat any.  It was not willpower; I did not want any.  This is soooooo awesome.  I asked God to take away the desire to overeat and He did. 

Here it is almost 2:30 pm and I have not wanted to eat since breakfast - and it was reasonable.  Tonight I will go to my special meeting for folks like me, (you know - special) and I can share my success.  I'm sure they understand and will be happy for me. 

Food is for living, not living for food.  I need to remember that.  It sounds simple, but hard for a hard- head like me.  LOL

I Lost Four Pounds

Day 8 - I did my weekly weigh-in this morning.  I am happy to say I lost 4 pounds.  Yaaaaaaaaa!   I love it.  I can't take any credit for it - it is a God thing all the way.  Thanks God. 

Someone brought a lot of Krispy Kreme donuts to a meeting I attended yesterday and I didn't even want one.  That is a miracle.  Normally I would have been all over them, eating at least two.  It was so strange not wanting one.  I knew then that I am gonna make it.

I am excited and encouraged.